I hope this will cheer you up

old pic's of you and me if i'm not mistaken this was taken on the day we first met 08'

I know it is very hard to wave goodbye don't cry anymore my sweet friend no worries when time permits we'll see each other again and do you wanna know a secret? we meet a lot of people and make friend a few and from those few some touches our lives in some way that their present is felt even in the absents too. You're the best best best of friend i have in this life although the way we met and know each other is a little funny from dreamworld into reality world and now here we are , i guess you remember all this well no?cause I will never ever forget all those precious moment or trade it for something because you been there to console me when I'm down and when i thought that the whole world has walked out on me.

Thank you for being there for me when everyone seem had left me behind and for the memory we shared remember when you need a friend just call my name I will be there.

It's not the last goodbye for us right ? you know when you left i try not to she'd tears but you left something in my heart something which is too great the meaning of LOVE and FRIENDSHIP. I'm gonna miss you take good care of yourself there and study well. :-)

Thought of the day

"One can only judge a book once they understand what they had read"

It's NEVER TOO LATE

Friendship isn't how you forget but how you forgive

Not how you listen but how you understand

Not how you see but how you feel

Not how you let go but how you hold on.

The purpose of friendship is not to have someone who might complete you. But to have someone with whom you might share your incompleteness.

Friendship is the inexpressible comfort of feeling safe with a person. Because you neither have to weigh your thoughts nor measure you're words.

Some people dream of success while others wake up and work hard at it.

Dream a better dream and work for it, Dream a better dream and work it hard

Dreams are reality and for dream to become reality is what we always dream.

Hold 10 roses in your hand and stand opposite to the mirror, you'll see 11 roses and between them the most beautiful roses in the world is you.

Whenever you feel a flutter of joy, it's probably others angel dancing over you. And whenever you smile for no reason at all its probably because I’m thinking of you.

Relationship between friend is like a violin, music may stop now. But the string are attached forever and if you be in touch or not, you are always be remembered.

So close but still yet so far..

Sometime my mind asked, why i'm missing you? why I care for you? why I always remember you? And then my heart answered me, it's simply because you are my sweet friend of all time.

The sun has risen from the east and birds are singing happily and butterflies are around the flowers. Its time to wake up give a bunches of hugs and say good morning to you my sweet friend.

We gain and lose things every day. But trust me on one thing: YOU WILL NEVER LOSE ME! I will always be there as a friend, a true friend is one who overlooks your failure and admire your success, a ring is round and has no end, that’s how long I will be your friend.

For the love of friendship

From the loneliest GIRL

Sometimes a smile holds more meaning than laughter’s in case if I'll be asked how did I feel meeting you in life, I'll just smile.

For the loneliest BOY

For the loneliest “girl” that I've ever knew. (“that suppossed to be boy”) It doesn't hurt me seeing you inlove with someone else, not when I see you so happy with “him” (“that suppossed to be her”) And not when you don't even bother to say a simple hello to me. It hurts me knowing that I should've be in this place.

It's worth the WAIT

Life answer in three ways “YES” when it wants to give you what you deserve. “NO” when it wants to give you something better. “WAIT” when it want to give you the best.

Expect the unexpected

Don’t expect anything from life expectations hurts. When you don’t expect every moment everything is a surprise and every suprise , brings happiness with it.

Live life to the fullest

There are four types of people in these world

1. There are people that makes things happened.

2. There are people that watch things happened

3. There are people that wonder what happened.

4. There are people in these world that just wait things to happened.

Dream a better dreams

Night has ended for another day. Morning has come in a special day. May you smile like a sunny rays, and leave all your worries at the blue bay.

The secret to smile

Smile is language of love smile is a source to win a heart. Smile is name of lonely mood. Smile creates greatness in personality keep smiling.

The secret to LIFE

Be yourself and don’t let everything to rely on LET IT BE. MAKE IT BE! keep your dreams alive cause you deserve much better more. Others people don’t deserve your dream. And always tell yourself that you will be great someday. And remember one thing do not hold on too much and whatever that happen it happen for a reason. That what makes you today, don’t lose your personality when at time the universe deliver a hardest situation, it is because success is on your way and don’t forget “REMEMBER TO REMEMBER.”

Subject yourself

In order to find your way to greatness, make peace with the past it's the secret to who you are.

Be yourself and Be strong

Ever since he broke your heart, you never cry anymore not even a single salty tears ! Perhaps god wants you to experience all those hurting in early stages, so in future you will learned how to be strong.

Never ever give UP!

Note yourself that you are not alone, keep saying that words to yourself. No matter how bad thing is theres always a better tomorrow.

Choose to be happy

Never give up on the people you love, the loving act of a generous heart always bring happy returns.

The two of us

Do you still remember?

Do you still remember?

Every memories the two of us

had share each other?

at once upon a time,

You’ll wait for me and I’ll wait for you

at the paradise of love

we spread our wing’s and fly high

up in the sky and feel free like a dove

Just you and I, the two of us..

Cause I still can freshly remember

at once upon a time you and me,

we both use’d to smile and laugh together,

You tell me your secret and I’ll tell you mine

and the two of us promise that we’ll forever

be friend’s and our eternal

love and friendship would never end

for It will always remain

forever last until the end..

And I hear you say,

(I cross my heart body and soul)

So, I repeat what you say,

I cross my heart body and soul.

Just when you think of me

I think of you too

(when I’m in your mind)

You’re in my mind too ohh..ohh

(when I’m in your thought)

You’re in my thought too

(when I’m in your dreams)

You’re in my dreams too ohh..ohh

(whenever you shut your eyes)

whenever I shut my eyes

(you see me standing right there next to your skin)

And I see you standing right there next to my skin

touching my lip’s then slowly caressing my cheek’s

hearing your voice’s softly whispering

and say I’m all your’s sweet dreamy angel.

You’re like every air I’ve breath to live

the one that I would spend the rest of my life with

the one that make’s me brand new and feel so alive

My sweetheart

My darling

My love

My everything

and my one and only

heart truly desires..


By: ZJ mars mell-o

One last night

I lie alone in my bed

one last night

In no ones arm’s

you came to save me

from It’s lonely

lonely nights

now that you are far

far away from me..

sometime when I’m alone

I would spend my time with you

all day long In my mind

only missing you

hug’s yeah

then tell yeah

that there's only

one girl In my heart

and that Is you..

You said yeah

let me proved it to you

now closed your eyes

and lie in my arms tonight

believe in me that

we'll see each other again

In a next one last night..

I waited for you here

one last night

you came by just when I left

but I tell myself

that It’s alright

It’s gonna be okay

cause I know that you and I

will always have another one more

one last night..

sometime I would want to touched yeah face

sometime I would want to kiss yeah lips

cause you’re my only girl

I’m you’re only boy

and there's many things

I wanna tell you

In a ways that haven’t been thinkin’ of

Wonder where you are right now?

and in who’s arms you lie?

are you the angel that

hug's and kiss me last night?..

You said yeah

let me proved it to you

now that you are here tonight

closed your eyes

and slowly fall's into my arms yeah

believe in me that

we'll see each other again

In a next one last night..

Boy meet Girl = He say and She say

Case study:

I'll (you) hurt (me) you

I'll (you) make (me) you cry,

I'll (you) never care and

I'll (you) never wanna try to understand you (me)

to know (me) you..

Feel the way (I) you do

Through your (my) heart and

through your (my) soul

I've (you) do nothing than judge yourself

(myself) in the other way and take

(me) you for granted

I'm (you're) not suppossed to left

(me) you All alone the moment and time

when (I) you needed me (you) the most

When all that (I) you need is for someone

that you (I) could lean your

(my) head on Hold you

(me) tight and tell you

(me) that not to worry so much my baby sweetheart

--Don't be afraid as long as i'm with you

everything will be alright..--

But i'll (you'll) never been there for you

(me) I (you) should've love you,

(me) instead of doing all those things that

i'm (you're) not suppossed too..

(you're) I'm stupid!!

(you're) I'm dumb!!

(you're) I'm hopeless!!

(you're) I'm useless!!

(you're) I'm coward for I

(you'll) do nothing than just letting (me) you suffer

(you'll ) I'll never been there to stand for you (me)

(you'll) I'll never been there to defend you (me)

And to fight for our loved

(you'll) I've do nothing than just putting all the blamed on you (me)

(you'll) I realized that what i've (you) do is wrong..

--When everything is seem's too late

to turned back each moment and each time that

we've been through together--

(you'll) I've do nothing than hurt you (me)

Cause I (you) dont give a damn not even a single

freakin' care about you (me)..

(you're) I'm stupid!!

(you're) I'm dumb!!

(you're) I'm hopeless!!

(you're) I'm useless!!

(you're) I'm cruel for being so selfish

(I) you love me with all your (my) heart,

And with everything that you (I) have

(I) You always care

(I) You always be there

Through vain and through pain

Through happy and sad

you (I) we're always be there

Whenever I (you) call your (my) name,

(I) you was there come running and,

(I'll) keep me (you) warmth with your (my) love,

And tender loving touched

And there's no one in mylife (yourlife)

will ever love me (you) like (I) you do

There is no other, there is no other than you (me)

I (you) should've love you, (me) instead of doing

all those thing that i'm (you) not supposed too..

(you're) I'm stupid!!

(you're) I'm dumb!!

(you're) I'm hopeless!!

(you're) I'm useless!!

(you're) I'm coward for I (you) do nothing

than just letting you (me) suffer

(you'll ) I'll never stand for you (me)

(you'll) I'll never defend you (me) and,

(you'll) I'll never fight for you (me)

I've (you'll) do nothing than just putting all the blamed on you (me)

And now I (you) realized, that everything I (you) do was wrong..

--When everything is seem's too late and impossible

to turned back each moment, and each time that

we've been through together--

(you're) I'm stupid!!

(you're) I'm dumb!!

(you're) I'm hopeless!!

(you're) I'm useless!!

(you're) I'm coward!!

(you're) I'm cruel!!

(you're) I'm idiot!!

(you're) I'm fool!!

For hurting you (me)

and for breaking your (my) heart

Cause no matter what I (you) do to forget you (me)

or take it as you (I) never exist in mylife (yourlife)

But I (you) just can't!!

I (you) just can't!!

--And If somewhere someday i'll see you again i make sure one thing that my leg and hand will stick on your face cause you've owe me a tight slapped!!--

DAMN YOU!!

A love story

She don’t know how and where do they start all that she wanted to say is everybody had a dream in their life but not all what we want we've get some are come true and some are not and her's one and only dream is related with love for someone to prove how he really mean into her life.

She really treasure their relationship cause he is apart of her life how she'd love to see him everyday and how he used the good in every way cause he and only he could stole her heart. What most hurting her is when knowing that there's a huge wall standing between them they we’re separated by time and the distance. Somehow , that never change anything to her cause all that she wants is to make dreams come true.

But, sometime when thing never happened the way we want it when we almost there to grab it but then it just slipped from our life just like a quick-silver. Why, Over again this word are often playing on her mind but she couldn’t find any answer. Why love can turn someone into worry and fear. She has been thinking about it since the thing happened she left to reply him.

They say life is unfair yes it's true and she do believe that sometime life can be so unfair to us but never about someone saying that life is unfaithful life is a game like hide-and-seeking. She come to realize and trying to figure out some reasons she’d make her guess but still she want to listen some truth from him to convince him not to worried anything cause whatever he say it would be acceptable.

Where as they know that there is REALITY and FATE.

She don't know how far they can go and hide from reality when truth is revealed and all the things whatsover it would do to him even so to her, it makes them worry and fear to know what would happened then when faith are agains't the will they’ve might end up in a hatred way frustrated and feeling depressed.

She couldn't count all on love to find it ways and embrace their heart how fortune if she could turn dreams into reality. Cause he and only he could painted a smile on her face he and only he filled her empty life with laughter's and spoil her with lot’s of love.

All that she wan’t is a sincerity on love and to make dreams come true.

‘'Till the shiny day dreaming of Paradise...'’

The Last Goodbye - For the last time

It was night, and silence she imagine she could hear the musical motion of the stars. She knew all she had to know, she had experienced all she had to experience, darkly without thinking at all she knew that she was near to death. She was quite lost and daze really dead to her own life, I shall die I shall quickly die she said to herself . It was a decision. It was not a question of taking ones life, she would never kill herself that was repulsive and violent. It was a question of knowing the next step, the step lead into the space of death. Could she give herself to it ? she had enough. She said to herself. Unless i absolve myself from the rhythm of life, fix myself and remain static. But better die than live in this cruel world, to die is to move on with the invisible. To die is also a joy which is greater than the known, the pure unknown that is joy. Life indeed may be ignominious shameful to the soul. But death is never a shame. Death itself like the illimitable space is beyond our sullying. She had enough. She said. There was nothing to look for from life it was the same the only window was death that one could look out on the great dark sky of death with emotion. There was no escape of life to save in death to think that whatever humanity did and whatever life might be it could not take away death, the inhuman transcendent death. Let us ask no question of it she said, what it is or is not..? to know human and in death we do not know, we are not human. In death we shall not be human , and we shall not know. She sat quite still and quite alone by the fire in the living room, she was gone into the ultimate darkness of her own soul. Suddenly the bell ring and she opened the door, oh.. Carl is it you ? She said. I am glad you are at home he said in a low voice while entering the house , carl look at her and wondered at the luminous delicacy of her beauty ,wide shining of her eyes. He watched from a distance with wonder in his heart, she seemed transfigured with light. What have you doing all day my love ? He asked her nothing only sitting about she said, He looked at her. There was a change in her. But she was separate from him, she remain apart in a kind of brightness. Shelly my love, as long as i can breath don’t worry, i will always be with you. Carl, do you love me? she asked. He kissed her softly cause she talk too much. Haven't you seen enough ? she said.

It's a bitter thing to me. If i die, you'll know i haven’t left you and you wont have left me, he said. we shan't have any need to despair in death. That is the first time they both talk heart to heart, If death is my destiny i still have to die and leave you behind my love. Deep down inside only god knows her sadness suddenly tears came up. We've both sacrifice , for all she said. You have put your trust on me. Even if i get shoot for something that i don’t even know what i have done, atleast i have done my best my love.. The next day shelly went back to her sister house. she remained to finish the holiday admitting nothing. He scarely ever left her alone, but followed her like a shadow. I can be free of her, said carl to himself, He even prepared to go away, to leave her. But for the first time there was a flaw in his will. Where shall i go ? He asked himself. Can't you be self-sufficient ? He replied to himself, putting himself upon his pride. A fine thread still united her to him. It should not be her death which broke it she had farther to go. In the end shelly made her decision, I shall go away from carl she said to herself. She made her decission, to return back to zack. One destroyed that the other one might exist, one ratified because the other was nulled. She knew her next step- she knew what she should move on to when she left Zack, she was afraid of zack that he might kill her. But she did not intend to be killed. The only way to safe her and carl is she should return back to zack. Goodbye carl I’m sorry for leaving you behind..

" I can't waste time so give it a moment I realize that nothings broken, no need to worry about everything i've done like every second like it was my last one, don’t look back got a new direction, I love you once needed protection.. You still apart of everything i do you're on my heart just like a tattoo I'll always have you I'll always have you. If i live every moment wont change any moment, still apart of me and you I will never regret you.. Still the memory of you marks everything I do.."

That evening she remember the scene once more suddenly her tears came up.. Don't cry , Don't cry , Don't cry, Dont cry anymore.. Don't cry, Don't cry, he repeated. Don't cry anymore. I had to break with you, it had to be, it had to be.. You shall never see me again my love. he said. Then she looked up her eyes wide and frightened. Carl, I have loved you, i've always love you but you always done this to me! Don't cry, Don't cry , he repeated, Don't cry anymore. He went over to her and kissed her fine fragile hair touching her wet cheeks gently, he held her head close against him.. Shelly my love, the moment of truth that only haunts you is memory of the past always come every time i saw you. To leave you behind would not be easy because in my heart i only love you but goodbye for the last time even though i could not do, i am better not to be with you because there’s someone with you.  

But still the memory will come crashing through that makes my life undo cause everytime i remember you the fine moment both of us too that marks everything i do. Goodbye for now because if i follow then you should not go goodbye my sweet love and don’t try to look back because my heart would be broken to see your tears drop fall. 

THE END 

Once upon a time - The last goodbye

Isn't anything better rather than this....? 
Better be animals, mere animals with no mind at all ,
than this nothingness and hurting that never end. 

"He knew it from the beginning.." Ahh , what a fool..! 
And, it is you who are liars..! The only thing that you know fool--?"she said." 
So i am, a fool.. and thank god for it ,

I'm such a dumb stupid idiot, big fool to swallow your cleverness..



You are stupid and fool idiot, and you must know it, what you are is fool, that’s what you are.. --

you may well say and tell that you don’t want love, 
It may all be true, lies and stinks and all
 I said it because it is true do you see ..?
because you are you, a big fool and false liars! 


That's why you say it, and i hear it so you can go your way, and I'll go mine.. 

"Ahh, yes.. you don’t bother, You shall be alright ,
that's why you don't care.." she said. 

The only hopeless thing is a fool and you are quite right ,
I never right at all whatever I do is always wrong.


I'll never right! Arhh ,
Just cut the crap-! Lets finish this over, once and for all hurt me and i shall, be hurt for once and for all
 hurt my feelings more and more and I shall forget about you forever..! 
cause when I’m with you , you know exactly how to hurt me.. 

Can't you see that I'm trying so hard here...? 

Don't you know that this pain.. pain.. pain is so hard to bear?



" ....GOODBYE FOR NOW" "--said zack to her. 

Seriously or joking..? 

she repeat asking the same question, Is to make sure that zack is not joking this time" Yes, i am serious. he said.
I decided to broke up with you it's over now shelly ! 

Ouhh damn you It feels like i'll just strike a jackpot !! 



Don't you worry zack i would never stop you, "she said." Cus this will be my last and final goodbye remember, its you're the one who asked for it well then i shall will gave it to you and be happy zack! said shelly to him.



You don’t have to wish me shelly you'll be the most happiest one said zack to her, and so same goes to you zack you be happy as well. Im really glad you said that she said. Oh really...?He asked her, 

and what made you so glad..shelly ? He stare at her, showing his fierce face, to shelly. 

You really wanna know why.. ? Cause you've asked for it zack ! 
well then i shall to fulfill your wish and make it came true. 

Here take your rings back! I dont need those on my finggers! 
cause when you say over is over..! 



The ring that you wear, glad to see it every time you waves goodbye, but now its was different, since it wasn't there. Well I guess this journey is just another chapter for us to learned and remember now you already have found your way and I have found mine.

We say hello then we say hai , but now it’s all has to end by waving GOODBYE.