My love for you will always stay

My love for you will always stay

I wish I could hold you
In my arms tonight
And tell you that I love you
 And how much I really care
but now all I can do is only
watching you from a far

While I’m standing here

all alone with empty smile

And empty thoughts

I’m feeling cold and dry

With my emotion

trying to hide the tears

That lies at the corner of my eyes

I’ll found myself dancing in the rain

So no one’s will know when I’m crying

There’s so many thing

I wanted to say and make you understand

Baby, I need you to know this

to love you more is aren’t easy

cause you belong to someone else

to leave you behind is impossible

and its hard for me to do

because in my heart I only love you

Trust in me when I say

no matter what

no matter where

no matter when and

no matter what happen

my love for you will always stay

I’ll always be here to hold you close

and I will embrace you

next to my heart

next to my heart oh, oh

Baby I need you to know this

to love you more is aren’t easy

cause you belong to someone else

to leave you behind is impossible

and it’s hard for me to do

Because in my heart

I only love you

I only love you   oh, oh

Now Trust in me when I say

no matter what

no matter where

no matter when and

no matter what happen

My love for you will always stay

My love for you will always stay

  My love for you will always stay.. 

 Lyrics written by:  ZJ Mars Mell-o 

Copyright on: 25 May 2009

I wrote this few year's ago and now I wanna share it here hope you all like it.. It's kinda more like a love song lyric he..he  =D 

Stupid people make me laugh!!

Alright here it goes upmh' before of anything else first of all i wanna start this entry with my evil laugh testing one, two,three HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHA!! 

But wait a minute let me explain it here why am i laughing so evil like I'm gonna murder a person with this way of laughing. Well, i saw something at my shoutbox and i really don't like what i see because there is a stupid donkey saying that i am his "mylove" what the heck!!!! how dare you to call me your lover?? I don't even know who you are and one more thing this donkey also saying that i am frustrated. I guess the stupid donkey thought that the previous BM entry i posted is something that must've related to myself situation.

Hello, Hello, Hello stupid donkey It's just  a poetry "tak ada kena mengena pun dengan yang hidup atau dah mampus" one more thing i tak pernah pun chat dengan you kat FB tu not even one time!!!

Ko ni memang gila kot budak yang dah terancat akal..??

Only people with FISH BRAINS do this kind of shit!!  

Ada satu lagi benda i nak cakap aku memang suka menulis tapi tak semestinya apa yang i tulis tu berkaitan dengan hidup i sendiri. SO, jangan sesekali kata i frustrated sebab nak buat my BF sakit hati?? Just to let you know that i am happy with my relationship and your dumb shit fire is not gonna work because i'm not a stupid donkey as you!!

SO stay away from me before my temper burst OUT!!!! cause I guarantee you this that I can track you down so easily anytime I want.

DONT TRY TO MAKE ME MORE AND MORE EVIL 

ELSE YOU WILL FACE THE CONSEQUENCES.  

Sahara..

Perjalanan kehidupan ini

begitu penuh dengan jalan

yang berliku-liku melalui jurang

yang kadang tak bisa untuk dilepasi

kerana waktu itu telah sampai

kesatu titik penghujung

yang mana ia tidak mungkin

dapat diputarkan kembali

Apa ada pada cinta yang cuma

berpaut pada janji palsu

meninggalkan jejak tak bertapak

dipinggiran rindu

kerana aku akan kedaerah

yang tidak bermusim lagi

setandus sahara digurun pasir

Lalu aku hanya sekadar musafir jalanan

yang kehausan dan setelah lelahku hilang

aku akan meneruskan perjalananku

mungkin disitu aku akan ketemui

sebuah mimpi kerana tidur ini tak seindah

dahulu lagi dan aku benar-benar pasti

yang mana ini adalah realiti

Biarlah ianya begitu hanya kerana

mimpi itu adalah dirimu

yang sentiasa menemani setiap malamku

walaupun kutahu suatu masa nanti

ianya pasti akan berlalu pergi

Namun aku kan sentiasa menunggu

menjadikan diriku seorang perindu

pada kisah yang lalu kerana

dimana bumi berpijak

kutetap seperti dahulu

yang sentiasa diburu bayanganmu

Dan jika cinta itu ibarat satu lautan

maka hati adalah kapal yang berlayar

di atasnya apabila ribut melanda

menengelamkan hati kedasar jiwa

yang tak berpenghuni

menanti sebuah harapan

yang tiada kepastian dan menatap

ke atas langit  yang sepi

sesepi kasih disudut hatimu.

Do you hear my pain?

Do you hear my pain?

Do you hear my pain?

Do you hear my pain?

 I know they don't..

How can they hear something

that isn't said?

Now hear me, feel me

Touch me, sense me

Life love me, love live me

Comfort me, encourage me

Protect me from harm

Give me strengths

Fill me with only good thoughts

Send me wisdom

So,  I live my life in silence

Because I've forgotten how to speak..

By: G.A aka Z.J

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 Testing from iPhone awhhhh, It work's he he he I can post an entry to bloggers only in a few second's using the widget I downloaded from apple store iPhone applications!! This is really cool =D

Paris hilton converted to islam can you believe it.??

Paris hilton converted to islam wow, can you believe it?? the rumors say's :


Paris Hilton also plans to change her name to ‘Tahirah’ which means ‘Pure, chaste’ in Arabic. Her Islamic school will open in July and is set to become a popular Hollywood spiritual haunt for many celebrities.

Love, pyaar, cinta ,amor

Is it true? they say when you fall in love everything turned just so perfect even the pounding of your heartbeat they become all worth it. Love, pyaar, cinta , amor although this words are sometime pronounce in a different form of language but all this words share only one same meaning that each and every one of us probably tell or say the same word’s almost everyday to their very own beloved person. But how many of you out there who know and truly understood what love is, and what love is all about?

Because there are millions who don’t know and some of them perhaps doesn't have an any idea or clue on how to answer this one simple question yeah mostly not until when what they have in their grasp had finally slipped from their lives just like a quick-silver and they define what true loves mean when only it is pain until the end.


Hmmm have you ever try asking yourself this? why do you love and fall for someone and if at the end of the tale there's always one has to wave their hands then say “sayonara”..? and the only thing that is left behind for you is a heartbreak and the remaining hatred cause even if the pain goes away but the marks of the scar will always stay and sticked there with you fresh and newly wounded just like yesterday.

LOVE and LIFE  both are like a mirrors for these two words thus reflect into each other. They brings happiness to us and also paint more colors in our everyday and journey of our lives cause without love there is no life and without life, love has never even been born. Could love exist without life? and so can life exist without love? I’m very sure that you know the answer for this question even the kinder-garden kid's know the answer to this question too!!


Ha-ha **add some laugh** don't be so serious ok? chill.

We all can share and expressed our love and feeling’s to someone in many ways which is appropriate and you don’t need to wait and keep it until the valentines day does finally come right and only then you will start telling them about how much you care and love them? cause to me we can show love everyday even it is on Monday , Tuesday , Wednesday , Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday or what days it is that's do not matter cause what is really count in there is when you love someone make sure you truly mean it from your heart don't say "I LOVE YOU" if you never meant the word's you say.


Don't give an empty false hope and promises that you cannot fulfill cause time awaits for no one and it hurt like crap hoping for something that eventually at the end of the day it was not meant to be yours!! It's probably easy for those who hurt a person but not for the one who get the pain and fall out victim cause when you love someone what you must do is try to keep them happy and paint some smile on their face let them know and help them realize that even how worst things could get sometime they still have you with them and they are not alone for you will always be there for them.

Always remember this thought as lesson we've learned from each other because love is not a kind of game that when you lose the only thing you have to do is pressing the restart button and resume it again cause it is not gonna happen not even in dreams once it’s over everything must come into an end. Because love is fragile , untouchable yet easy comes and also easy goes. At one moment it comes all around you and surrounded you just like a butterflies silently and then suddenly it stood still on your shoulder but then at the other minute it’s just flew away from your sight right before you have notice it and without you realize that you've just missed the chances to see it's hidden beauty and there it’s in your life you would be lost and empty without it.

For me the real meaning of love is to “LOVE GOD ABOVE ALL” to “SHARE” to “GIVE” to “RESPECT” to Be KIND to all and never ending help to whom in need. To fall in love is a natural thing even if thing's sometime don't turn out the way we want it to be, but we should never give up and stop trying or lose hope cause there is a happy ending out there for us even at times it's just not always happen on how we plan it to be - but I know we all have one “LOVE”.

Yes it’s mystical to fall and care for someone who is a complete stranger but that’s the magic of love that’s the law of attraction.

Our love story - Love notes

Take a deep breath and close

your eyes then tell me

what do you see do you see me? 

Cause that’s what I do when

I’m alone I close my eyes

and select what I see I'll try

to imagined the thing's that

i've always want it to be

although I know that those thing's

are only exist in my fantasy

but all that I've want is to make

them come true

You know when you we’re a kid

do you believe in  fairytales?

A love tales story which every

girl's always dream about specially

the part where the princess

found her belove'd prince

and that the two of them

will finally be together live'd happily

ever and after

But sadly those such thing's

has  never get to  happened

in real life and when we're talking

about reality a word’s happy

is doesn’t seem'd  to exist

in the vocabulary of my life

As I almost stop believing in love

for true love are no longer exist

in this world

There was a time I'm all alone

I was sitting next to the window

of my bedroom I look deep into the sky

and then I saw one bright star

as it seem’s shining over me

I asked the sky, why  do star’s

shining so bright tonight?

could it possibly because someone

out there perhap’s is also looking

at the same bright star?

So I asked the sky again is there

even any possibility that a two

person from the two different

side of world would found love

in each other?

Who know’s there is a biggest

chances that they both

we're mean't to be together

Then one day as I met you

out there in a one summer

for hours we sat and talked

to each other like old friends

we were I remember funny

that I could find love

in a perfect stranger

We’re both are just like a young

and inlove teenager sharing each

other’s honestly feelings

And I've tell this to myself

knowing you in my life is like

a dreams  that come true to me

I’ve thanked god for everything

and for making my wish come true

as I’ve already found someone

that I could called a special lover

All i can say is I felt  like I am the most

happy person on this earth

as now you and I could share

each and every precious

moment together

Sweetheart, I want you to know

this I just wanna spend mylife

with you cause you are the one

that makes me smile I just wanna

spend mylife with you

You are my dream my love my life..

 "Two lover's born into this life

        each born alone half of a whole"

Dream Beach

I can only Imagine our very first hug

it would be an early walk at dream beach

the cold fresh air are blowing over us

from across the sea

You say oh my darling this place is beautiful

after that we picked up some shell

that tide left behind and at one such moment

the wind would play through your hair

and freeze its beauty in my mind forever

Then at one moment I heard you

calling me to go to you

come and check this one darling!

And in your hand would be a shell

as our eyes would meet and little

smile for what we share slowly

I close your hand with shell inside

your fingers are hiding it from the sea

then I say now make a wish my angel

After that you make a wish and wish

for a hug a big, big hug from your hero

and just want to feel it the way

you had always imagine it to be

with your heart beating faster

and say please, please my prince darling

just this time I want you close

Then for no reason the cold sea wind

stop it’s hold your skin and you feel

someone close, very close to your skin

you can feel the warmth radiating

and lovely smell of someone skin

And draw it in to make you warm

on inside too then you say please don’t let go!

hug’s me hug’s me forever and ever

then lift your feet from the ground

so tight I  hold yeah and then the two of  us

just melt for love and kiss..

whatever ZOMG

Thought of the day

Every success are based on good judgement.

Life is a game of chess and each moment form part of it. 

You have to be successful in every aspect of life, 

then you would move forward in life. 

You have to work when others sleep and one day you can sleep.

Cinta - DIA

Petang itu seperti kebiasaan dia 
akan menghabiskan sisa - sisa masanya dipejabat sehinggalah dia dapat menyelesaikan kesemua tugasan-tugasan kerja yang perlu dia siapkan. Akan tetapi debaran hatinya masih belum
 berhenti lagi malah dia rasa debaran 
hatinya itu menjadi semakin kencang. 
Hmmm ada sesuatu yang tak kena ke?

Katanya sambil dia rasa tertanya-tanya pada dirinya---Ah' tensionnya!! kalau beginilah kehidupan tidak lama lagi dia akan sakit mental.

 Seriously hari - hari dia berdepan dengan 
macam-macam jenis masalah tak habis-habis dia yang selesaikan  problem masalah yang "old jimmy"wonder tinggalkan kat dia pun sudah menjadi salah satu daripada masalah hariannya belum termasuk lagi masalah dunia yang perlu dia hadapi kat luar sana.



AH!--aku benar-benar stressssssssed!!! Katanya 
dan dia penat memikirkannya ada baiknya jika dia cari suatu tempat untuk tenangkan fikiran dapat juga dia lepaskan segala rasa tension dan rasa serabut yang masih lagi tersimpan dalam kepalanya itu.. 


Tik..tik..tik jam berdetik dengan begitu pantas waktu sudah pun menunjukkan tibanya masa untuk dia melangkahkan kakinya keluar dari pejabat lagipun tugasan-tugasan kerja yang 
perlu dia siapkan kesemuanya sudah pun selesai..

Tidak lama kemudian telefon bimbitnya berbunyi,

 ‘’I got the feeling that tonight’s gonna be a good night’’ hah! 

panggilan  dari azwan? 
Dia ni mesti nak ajak 
aku lepak kat kedai mamak ataupun 
nak suruh aku belanja makan..

Hello---- kata azwan salam azmi apa khabar hari ini?

azmi: sihat sihat aje..



azwan: kau free tak hari ni?

azmi:  kenapa bro? aku macam biasa petang petang macam ni memang aku free..

azwan:  aku ingat nak ajak lepak sama ni bro..



azmi:  lepak? kat mana? 

azwan:  tempat biasa yg kita lepak tu lah, 
actually aku nak kenalkan kau dengan someone ni ala’ budak yang kau pernah jumpa waktu kita lepak makan-makan kat klcc dulu..



azmi:  siapa pulak ni bro?

azwan:  dak yang pernah lepak dengan kita 
dulu tu..lah? ingat lagi tak?lagi pun aku rasa kau ni macam tak ada seorang pun kawan perempuan ntah ntah kau masih frust lagi ya? hehe..

azmi:  wei aku tak nak lah lepak dengan 
budak tu kau sendiri tahu kan style aku macam mana? walaupun aku takde seorang pun kawan perempuan 
bagiku itu semuanya tidak penting bro 
seriously aku tak kesah sangat pasal tu sebab aku lebih selesa dengan diriku yang sekarang..



azwan:  so macam mana? nak lepak tak?
 jom lah lepak sama-sama bro aku dah sampai keboring yang tahap maximum ni..



azmi:  bro kalau kau nak lepak jugak 
boleh tapi kau jangan bawak budak 
tu boleh tak? aku tak nak kalau ada perempuan ikut sama apa kata kali ni kita lepak just sesama kita? aku okay aje sebab aku rasa malam ni macam ada sesuatu yang bakal akan berlaku padaku haha..
ntah ntah aku akan bertemu dengan dream girl aku kot..



azwan:  lah’ bro kalau betul macam 
tu bagus juga sebab aku tengok engkau 
ni, dari dulu sampai sekarang, still the same masih lagi  frust dengan perempuan kot haha..



azmi:  wei bro sampai hati kutuk gua 
macam tu nanti kalau apa yang aku katakan 
tadi terjadi betul-betul hah’ jangan kata belanja makan kat kedai mamak belanja kat restoran 5 star pun boleh bro haha..



azwan: cool bro alright kalau macam tu kita 
jumpa kat tempat biasa okay salam 

kita jumpa kat sana nanti 

azmi: okey                                          

-----end of  call-----

Ah’ asyik aku aje kena belanja tapi itu 
semuanya tak penting what's most important is tonight aku dapat releasekan tension dan serabut-serabut yang ada kat dalam kepala aku nih.. Huhh pelik juga dari petang tadi aku
 rasa macam ada sesuatu yang akan berlaku 
kepada diriku ini, haihs apa-apa pun aku akan sabar menunggu dan aku  juga akan pastikan ianya adalah sesuatu yang telah lama aku nanti-nantikan..


Bersambung...

Cinta - DIA

Sesaat “DIA “ rasakan kebahagian yang dulu “DIA” tidak pernah dapatkan  adalah kata-kata indah yang sering terucap dari bibir mereka yang mungkin sedikit dan sebanyak dapat juga meringankan bebannya dan membuatnya lebih berharap pada hari indahnya.

Sejuta sayang telah “DIA” curahkan kepada mereka tanggapannya yang semakin buruk telah digantikan dengan kasih yang tulus dan perkataan indah itu juga telah membuatkan dirinya terhanyut sebentar dalam kebahagiaan yang telah lama di carinya dalam kehidupnya yang selama ini ibaratkan penuh dengan kegelapan.

Tetapi setelah “DIA” menganggap mereka sebahagian daripada hidupnya bermula pada saat itu juga semuanya pun berubah, bukan kerana ada sesuatu perkara yang menganggu fikirannya dan bukan juga itu yang membuat hancur hatinya.

Tetapi apa yang telah membuatnya berfikir terbalik tidak pernah terpikir olehnya mereka akan melakukan perkara sebegitu kepadanya untuk pertama kali dalam hidupnya “DIA” merasa amat tersiksa tanpa tersadar curahan air mata telah membanjiri wajahnya batinnya seperti dirobek-robek bila teringatkan apa yang pernah mereka katakan dulu padanya.

“DIA “ tidak punya hak untuk marah kerana itu kebebasan mereka untuk menyakiti hati setiap orang tetapi apa yang “DIA” mahukan hanya penjelasan dari mereka mengapa mereka sanggup untuk melakukan perkara sebegitu terhadap dirinya, seburuk itu kah dirinya?

“DIA” sedar bahawa semua itu juga kesilapan berpunca darinya, apakah kesalahannya itu terlalu besar bagi mereka?Akan tetapi mengapa, mengapa mereka tidak memberinya satu kesampatan untuk memperbaiki segala silapnya dan tanpa “DIA” ketahui kesilapan dirinya mereka telah menghianatinya. Oh, tuhan mampukah “DIA”..mampukah “DIA” untuk menyayangi insan lain seperti dulu “DIA” menyayangi mereka..


Prologue: 

Kadang-kadang "DIA" rasa tertanya tanya pada dirinya mengapa dunia ini begitu kejam sekali terhadapnya? Di manakah kesilapan dirinya dan kesalahan apakah yang telah dia lakukan sehingga dia diperlakukan sebegitu kejam. Seolah olah dirinya itu tidak mempunyai perasaan apakah yang harus dia lakukan untuk melupakan segala rasa marah yang sudah lama dia pendamkan kerana dia tidak mahu rasa kemarahan dan kebencian itu akan mengekori dirinya selama-lamanya walaupun tanpa dia mahu. Dia hanya mampu berserah pada tuhan dan berdoa pada yang maha-esa agar diterangi jiwanya menuju keaarah yang benar "Ya, ALLAH ketemukanlah aku dengan insan yang mungkin bisa merubah kehidupanku" bisik hatinya dan tanpa dia sedarinya curahan airmata pun jatuh mengalir ke pipi. Kerana semakin lama dia rasa hidup ini semakin tak nyata kehidupannya bagaikan mimpi - mimpi yang tidak pernah terbangunkan, dia sudah tidak mengerti lagi dengan apa ertinya itu kebahagiaan. Dia juga mempunyai impian sama seperti insan yang lain dia mahu merasa gembira dan dia juga ingin merasa bagaimana rasanya bila diri dihargai dan dikasihi oleh kekasih akan tetapi apa yang dia inginkan selalunya tidak pernah kesampaian. Lalu dia pun membawa diri ke suatu daerah untuk melepaskan segala rasa marah dan segala rasa sakit hati dan keperitan luka yang masih lagi terpendam didalam dirinya itu. Di sana dia menanti akan sesuatu keajaiban yang mungkin akan berlaku dia menanti akan bakal hadirnya seorang insan yang dahulu hanya hadir di alam mimpi dan angan-angannya. Dia menanti akan hadirnya seorang insan yang bisa mengubah dirinya, insan yang akan memberikannya cahaya insan yang akan menerangi kehidupannya yang selama ini dia rasa bagaikan hidup di dalam dunia yang penuh dengan kegelapan. Mungkinkah dia akan bertemu dengan insan yang dia mimpi-mimpikan selama ini? apa yang mampu dia lakukan hanya berserah pada takdir dan menanti akan tibanya waktu yang dia nanti-nantikan di mana saat-saat itu mungkin adalah hari yang akan membawa penuh makna dalam hidupnya. Di sini inginku imbas kembali saat dan tiap detik ketika itu.. Entah kenapa suatu petang itu dia rasa ada sesuatu yang tak kena dengan dirinya sekejap dia kehulu dan kejap lagi dia kehilir. Dia tidak ketentuan arah katanya Ah!!--kenapa dengan diriku ini? hatinya berdebar debar pantas dia rasa macam ada sesuatu yang akan berlaku tetapi apa dia? puas dia fikirkan dan kata grrhhh.. tension betul!! apa tidaknya debaran seperti inilah yang sering buatnya tak senang duduk diam mahu sahaja dia gigit jari jemarinya itu tetapi degupan jantungnya masih tidak terkawal ada juga baiknya jika dia buat sesuatu apa lagi yang dia akan lakukan ketika dia menghadapi saat-saat sebegini? seperti kebiasaan sedang dirinya dilanda rasa tension tunggu apa lagi dia melepaskan segala rasa geramnya terhadap dirinya sendiri lalu dia pun menggigit kuku dan jarinya sendiri dan di saat dia sedang sibuk melepaskan geram hati kecilnya itu pun berkata.. "Ahhhh..ganjil pun ganjillah tak ada sesiapapun yang akan kesah..."

Camwhore kejap..

This is me

Zombie girl is also me coz i'm zombified at night scarrrrrrrry!!!!! huh.. =D

what is this? i don't know HAHAHA..

From zombie face suddenly transform to geisha whatever LOL

Cosmic bowling midvalley

Glow in the dark bowling best kan dapat main bowling kat sini he..he

Bergayaan korang ek, main bowling sampai tak ingat nak balik kan..

OH ya, nak tahu tak siapa yang menang game ni? 

korang boleh tanya mira sebab bola dia asyik masuk kat longkang aje ROFL!!

Dia lah WINNER HAHAHA..