The Greatest Silence

His eyes and heart watching her but she don't come.
His eyes and heart calling her name but she don't come.
His eyes and heart waiting for her but she don't come.
His eyes and heart crying for her but she don't come.
His eyes and heart saying only her name but she don't come.
His eyes and heart loving only her but she don't come.


His stood alone in the darkest corner of his empty room and said to himself it's too late to regret. She's gone into a path with no more returns.


Silently he heard something a soft voice whispering. His quite unsure about what he hear, as he thought it's only a delusional that playing tricks with his mind.


A soft voice whispers again this time he was sure about what he hear it's a voice of someone that seem's familiar to him.


I'm here for you
I'm here I'll come to see you 
I'm here for you I'm here for you
I'm here just like I'll always do
I'm here for you to let you know
that I've never really left.

Although I've chosen the path with there's no more turning back but you can always whispers my name in silence when you needed someone when you needed a friend I will be there..


 --After hearing what the voices whispers to him in the air--


His heart stopped beating His eyes stopped blinking His brain starts thinking And said to himself. This is my hope to comes to you. So close but yet so far this is my dreams to look only you, his lips kisses directly onto the mobile screen which showing a photo of someone that he use to know.

He wanted to tell her something but he couldn't as his thought are always changing. He had no other choice than to whisper what he wants to say in silence.


--I know you had love with someone but all I know and could say is that I think of you why?? I don't know if you will hate me for this. I only now realize that I love you from my heart and a part of this piece of my heart there is a place for you--     

Shadow of the past holds the future hostage

When I try to look back at the things that I had left behind is one of the hardest thing’s that I must cope for looking back is one of the most bitter things that happen to me in this life which I have to swallow all alone by creating a world of imagination and an escaped for myself to hide from the real world. 

But there are times you know when you just cannot hide from it anymore then eventually you have to faced-up some of those super duper reality and I’m not a supergirl nor wonderwomen. Not at all because I don’t have a power to change the world but I’d like to think that I can make a difference to my life by keep on moving forward and not giving up easily.

But I let my own self down, I let people made a promise to make up to which they never do from time and time again. I'll let them took advantage on my innocent kindess. In fact I’m also not so happy as a dark force is on my case and I try to make success cause I believe that my future would be determined shortly as I am trying to be a better person.

But you know what they said? the higher you get by the more you must try but then I failed and cause I make the real world apart of my escapes. For once I’ve never stop thinking about the things that happening in my life the painfulness that I have with me since my childhood the time I had missed and anything that is related to me slowly leaving me behind and there are time I often feel like my life is like joke for everyone else! 

And I couldn’t help myself than only smile at it, though I know that when it’s come to facing up reality it’s another different story the fact is whether it’s up to myself to admit it or not cause what I felt deep within my heart is pouring like a heavy rain, but who know's more? other than my own selves. 

Is this real? am I standing in a real world or somehow? does anyone of you can tell me in what world am I living right now? Is it sort of fantasy or what do you think? the only thing I could tell you is my life is not as easy as people think, my life is filled with too many tears and also challenges the truth is sometime rarely pure and never simple but this is my world and also reality. 

They said sometime's we must get hurt in order to grow and we must fail in order to know what is best for ourselves cause our vision only clears after washed away with tears and pain.

I wish I can make thing's right I wish I have a power to change and solve the un-solve things. I wish GOD is listening to my prayers right now cause only "thee" the ALMIGHTY ALLAH who know what might happen today and tomorrow.