To my beloved mother..

Mother, i miss the moment ,

we share laughters and tears together,

Mother, i miss you like the flower miss the sun,

You came to my dream with the smile on your face,

I hold you so tight as i'm afraid to lose you,

But no matter how i try to hold on you let go,

I am lost in these world without you mother,

I am lost in the way with no actual end,

Now all i can do is only missing you mother,

Cause you are no longer here with me..

Shadow of the past..

It was always been the same the thing

an object of desire dangeled just out of reach

and when i thought i could have it

when it was in grasping range

it was whipped away

I thought of my youth my golden days

when the world was buttery full of lipstick

and opportunity i'd thrown it away

frittered my young life away

trying to be nice wanting everyone to accept me

I thought what a vile thing to want to be

a slippy thing not good not bad just safe slightly sweet

but a people who not often speak out wont grab their chances

they kept their opinion quiet least they offend and least they lose

down it went into the red depths irretrievable lost forever. H

ow nice it would be if i can fly like a bird in the sky

feel free to go where i want and dance as i could

be myself and be more me cause sometime

I dont even know who i am anymore

I have change i'm not the girl that i use'd to see anymore

the girl that i first saw before i've been whipped away faded..